Monday, February 7, 2011

"The End Where I Begin"

This is a random start, so just beware! I've been pretty obsessed with The Script for a while now. If you haven't checked them out any further than "Breakeven", you absolutely should, it will be one of the best things you'll ever do! Anyway, after listening to this particular song (the title of this post, if you didn't catch that) incessantly, it sparked the idea in my head to being blogging again. (I also deleted my Twitter account last week, thus removing my major frustration outlet, therefore blogging definitely seemed like the next step!)  

Anyway, onto the real section of this first post. Ahem, "Che sarà sarà" -- "Whatever will be, will be." During any other part of my life this little Italian phrase would have been easily overlooked, however, it is now one that I can say I fully attest to. While I'm not so sure that I interpret it the way the original Italian coiner did, my interpretation is definitely one that brings me a source of comfort. It's true, in the grand scheme of things we aren't holding the reins, we aren't following the naive plan we've drawn up in our heads, nor are we even capable of knowing what will happen in the next 30 seconds. We, as humans, like to think that we're in total control of our lives, that we have everything planned out and that it will all go according to our plan. Haha, false. We have a minuscule amount of control, and most of us can't stand that. I'll be the first to admit that I'm not a fan of it, but I can also say that knowing I have somebody in control of my life who wants nothing but the absolute best for me...well...I'm definitely a fan of that. I left my bible/journal in my purse yesterday after church, and when I went to take it out this morning a little piece of paper fell to the ground. As I picked up the paper I realized it was a short scripture that I had jotted down a while back. 
"Jesus replied, you do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand." - John 13:7 
For the last few months I've asked God a million times, "Okay, seriously...why? Why, why, why?" I still ask it from time to time, but I suppose all I have to do is chill out, stop trying to analyze everything and I'll eventually understand later when I'm meant to. Afterall, whatever will be, will be, right? We'll see how well this mentality plays out, but for now, that's what I'm doing. :) 

M